since i know no one reads this i can actually write what i feel

Ok I understand it is the year 2010, and I understand along with breaking that glass sealing we also stated to the world "men we can open our doors." But sometimes its nice to feel special once in awhile. Ok here it goes. I have a friend who has a friend she likes that lives in florida. This friend in florida is trying to convince her to go to florida for a visit. Well not so much trying to convince her but just being so incredible charming that makes her want to go even after he tells her hey come to florida. But she is the girl. He is the guy. She wants to go but she's afraid for two reasons: a. Because she doesn't know him that well. And b. Because she doesn't want to be the girl who makes the jump for the guy. When The guy who does it looks romantic. The girl looks desperate and needy. Its almost sad to say because I pride myself in being independent. I am the one who went to europe by myself. I am the one who broke up with a man ready to go out and buy the ring even though I knew I would be set for life because I knew we weren't truly happy. I still feel it should be the guy. I'm not a embarrassed. I do not feel like it compromises my independence. It's just how I feel. The guy should make the move. I made the first move with men before and it doesn't work out. I want to be the girl that is special enough for the guy to make that move. That would be if its me. For me I feel its hard enough to believe the guy actually means what he says and he is being true but now men are expecting us risk it all. I just know I don't think I could risk my pride and especially my heart.