one wish

I do wish that I could learn how to be alone. I've always been OK with being alone so long as I always knew it wasn't for long or I had someone for a backup to entertain me. The latter of the two I do admit is selfish but every man has one and it women allow themselves to become them because they want to feel like they have it too. In the end for most people it is better to lay at night with Mr. wrong than lay alone. I myself will own up to it and admit I did it. But I don't wanna do it anymore. I want to rather be alone than settle or cuddle with the asshole.  I just feel like I deserve better. It hurts my pride so much for admitting this because I love pronouncing how independent I am, but how does one stop themselves from getting lonely, or horny for that matter. It's human nature to want to casual date, make out, have sex, want to find love. I don't mind being single, in fact I love it. But how do I not mind being alone?

What's next on the list

I have the what's next feeling again. I know I decided 2010 will be the year I take life by the balls and say let's make our own adventure. But I went to Europe, lived my dream, I went to Miami and took a chance on getting hurt, I got a tattoo, the words "My Way" are forever written on my hip until kingdom come, but now what. What's next on the list of really cool things I should do? Skydive? Am I that brave? Ride on the back of a motorcycle? What's my next adventure? I'm bored.