The Buried Life 2

One thing I did not have on my list was make the front page of the newspaper. I never thought of it actually.. but it would be damn kool. Well on Friday May, 28 2010 I did. It was my graduation day and I was all dolled up in my cap and gown, praying to God the rain holds out. As I walk into my department building I see my best college friends. We all hug and take a picture. As soon as we take a picture we get approached my a photographer by the Staten Island Advance, asking us if we will take a picture. Of course we agreed and we took about ten pictures, 9 of them being classic lovely pictures, one being a funny picture. Well the next day I get an e-mail from my father that says front page of the advance which a link is attached as well. I open it up in my blackberry and there it is, front page, where everyone can see, the funny picture. Words cannot describe the embarrassment that came over me. I was mortified, completely mortified. My mouth is open wide as if I'm screaming yeah! My hair is frizzy from the rain that followed the ceremony. I look completly stupid. Again I repeat completely mortified. I call my friends who is in the picture with me, Dave and Diana. They love it. Diana thinks we look funny. Dave is embarrassed but doesn't care because he feels like a celebrity for a day. Thank the Lord Jesus Christ in heaven my crush is out of the country on vacation. As the day goes on, the texts messages and facebook comments begin. Everyone says it's not "that bad" which implies to me that they think it's bad but not as bad as I feel. Most people say I look happy and cute. I know I've said it, I look like an idiot but I made the front page of the newspaper. I do believe that not even the real buried life crew even did that.
One more thing to add on my list. One more thing to scratch off.

GRADUATION

This week I am graduating, well having the ceremony because I graduated in January. I see it as an excuse to get off work for a day. This is because I feel I am not the same Jenny I was 6 months ago. I say that very often I know, but mostly it’s because it's true. I should be changing as in growing up; you never want to stay the same forever. Since I walked out of CSI last I have been to Europe, filed for 401k, worked 50 hours a week every week, and bought a car. I'm a grown up.
However walking in the ceremony does give this sense of accomplishment, Kind of like wrapping that pretty pink bow around my college education. I miss college every day. I miss the sense of knowledge the campus felt like. I miss learning so many different things I never thought of before. I miss questioning my life and my path. I miss learning photography and taking the classes and even the smell of the darkroom. I miss my comm classes because they were so interesting and so fun. I miss partying on a Thurs. night. I miss looking forward to spring break or winter break and certainly summer. I miss picking out my classes for the next semester. I miss reading the college newspaper and walking around the buildings reading the signs people put up. I miss being the student who always raises her hand.

LEGGINS!!!!

LEGGINS: the greatest tool a woman could use to manipulate a man since the invention of a blow job!
Woman,
do take advantage of this because all is fair in love and war BUT please take my 23 years of wisdom into consideration... if one OVER wears them they become boring to a man... use them mostly "when your the gloves are coming off!"

I haven't written because there isn't much to say

Ok, Honestly I have not written because my phone won't let me post on the website now, but mostly because there is nothing to report. I go to work, come home, rest for three hours, go to bed and start it all over again. I have become a sad, boring person. I do wanna just relax, I do feel like going to grad school is not in the cards for me yet. But i do miss the adventures. Going to Europe changed me, I mean I was always an adventurous person, Europe was the ultimate adventure. Now that it's over I see how I've grown an changed. Now I'm working everyday. My whole purpose in life is just work, and try to party on the weekends. I want another adventure. I'm looking for one, hopefully one will come.

and again

Again I expect something from someone and he doesn't come through with what he says he will. Its my own fault I just wish God I would actually live and and not expect much. Please. Now I'm praying for it.

expect nothing that way you don't get disappointed

I wish I knew what it wasd like to stop hoping things could change. There are so many people in the world that are like that. My friend nicole is one. She never gets disappointed because she doesn't expect much. I wish I could be more and more like her. In fact I'm starting to envy that ability she has. I'm tired of being disappointed.

the buried life

What do you want to do before you die? My entire life I would have said go to europe. It has always been to go to europe because that seriously was my dream. Well I can actually scratch that off thanks to the many blessings from God. Now I don't know what to say. Many times I've attempted a bucket list but I would always put stuff on it that I've already accomplished. Because to be honest I am the type of person if I really wanna do something I will do it like go to europe or get my belly button (and nipple) pierced or swim with dolphins. Those were incredible experiences that many people cannot say they did. I guess the reason why I was always to scared to actually make a list of things to do I was always afraid I would feel like I failed. I guess you can say my idea of failure is setting out to do something and not accomplish them. Well I adore the buried life because those four guys are inspirational to me at least. This list I will make it is not a list I will finish and I will not say I will scratch them all off. I will just say it will be a list of things that will be pretty damn cool to do. This list will probably also be added to in future entries because again it will never ever be finished. Here is the start of of this list of pretty damn cool things to do: 1. Go back to europe. 2. Be in a movie. 3. Skydive/bungee jump (like I would ever have the courage). 4. Publish a book. 5. Fall in deep and passionate love. 6. Get married. 7. Dance with ellen de generous. Now that would be freaking kool. 8. Volunteer for project hospitality, americorps, or some other pretty awesome charity. 9. Have a kid. 10. Live in gorgeous Manhattan loft. 11. Travel to Egypt. 12. Learn another language fluently. 13. Fool a pool shark and win $100 bucks. (Seriously that would be cool). 14. Learn to play an instrument. (This one may come true because it's not to far fetch.). 15. Dance the tango at a club in Buenos Aires. (Strange but just like al pacino). 16. Travel down under. (NZ or Aussie). 17. Buy a house. 18. Get a tattoo. 19. Start my own successful business. (Would be damn cool but most likely not my career path.). 20. Ride on the back of a motorcycle. (Seriously that would be so freaking cool.). For now my list of things that would be freaking cool has 20 items. I only want it to grow and honestly never be completed or scratched off.